quick update...

ok so life is crazy...so many changes.

-justin and i broke up... i couldn't do it anymore. that was in december.
-in January i meet this wonderful person and we started dating in Feb.um...her name is cat and we live together now. we've got the dog, turtle, bank account together thing going on. i know its crazy...but i care and love her so much. anyways if anyone wants to talk about it thats fine...i'm here you know where to find me. but know i've never been so happy in my life.
-it's been over a year since i've hurt myself...thats right one year bitches.
-um...i've got a semester and a half left of school...so excited.
-my oldest brother died recently and thats been really hard.
-i work to much and need to stop that....

ok well thats basicly the main things going on. i know not exciting...but i'm ok with that.

i don't like many things right now...i've gotten myself into a situation and feel so confused. i'm getting into old habits again...mainly smoking and drinking...hanging out with bad friends again and ignoring the only person who makes me happy...justin. wanting to cut badly lately. so basicly i'm screwing up again and i've realized it.

oh...i got my lip pierced...cause i was bored. yeah i don't know.

A LOT is going on...i'll update tonight when i get off. i haven't forgotten about this damn thing.

NO ONE LIKES YOU FINALS! STUPID POO-POO FACE FINALS!
jerks...


other then that life is good...see...Nicole smiling... = )

i really haven't forgotten about this things....i'll update about everything tomorrow. but for now sleep calls my name.

so...it dawned on me today...it's been SIX months since I last cut!!

HHHHOOOOLLLLYYY CCCRRRAAAPPP!!!

"Jesus, forgive us...
we know not what we do
Jesus have mercy on us,
I am what I hate, but I want to be just like you...."
~Showbread